More Than Lost

In and Out of Love (Butterfly Paintings and Ashtrays), 1991 - Damien Hirst

Usually, I’d say that I’m more of a reserved and introverted type of girl who doesn’t like going out much. I tend to have moments where I want to get out and explore, and that’s what I did this weekend. For the first time in my life, I used a city bus and went downtown. Now I’ve never done either of these things on my own, so it was a bit discomforting.  Getting on the bus was a bit difficult when it came to putting my card through properly, because I didn’t know what to do. Luckily, Taiesha was there to help me figure it out.  We decided to go exploring downtown New Haven and walk around. While we were there, she had me try bubble tea for the first time. Personally, I don’t like it. The tapioca tasted like licorice. It felt a lot less weird as the day went on and we went to a couple museums, but while walking through them, I felt really strange.  I always thought that I liked art, and had an appreciation for it. But, I felt awkward being in those museums, like I didn’t know what I was doing.  Walking around these museums definitely put me out of my comfort zone; the security guards watched your every movement and followed you around. I distinctively remember one of them telling me “you look lost”; it made me feel like an amateur walking around looking at everything because he must’ve been addressing the confused look that I probably had on my face. For me to be more comfortable with this, I’d probably have to go back and walk through them again. It was definitely something that I won’t forget because of how strange and new it was, but it was a thrill for me as well.