Odd Fears That Seem Like Excuses

Yeah, failure at its finest.

There could be several things said for why I myself don’t finish projects that I start. I start out with a clear idea of what I want it to be, what I want it to look like, etc. Projects for me become hardships and chores in the end. Here’s why:

      1.       I’m scared of the outcome.

                When I start projects, I have a plan of how it should turn out in my head. Once I start out working on it, I find little things I can do to change it, and my original idea ends up becoming something that I didn’t expect, and the more changes I make, the less satisfied I’ll be with whatever I’ve created. It won’t look anything like I had planned out. The second I realize that my project isn’t working the way I wanted it to, I will stop and never go back to it. This is a good reason for why I’ve currently got so many unfinished projects.

2.       It’s easy to get lost

This one applies more to writing. You know when you write dialogue or action for a character, and you come up with something really good that you want to focus on? It can either add to your story or completely take you off path with how you wanted your story to flow.  This tends to happen to me very often, and it has. I mentioned I was doing NaNoWriMo this month, and I’ve quit. Not only do I not have time to write, it’s hard to come up with what to write about next and get stuck in writer’s block for quite some time, and because of what I ended up writing, and changing, my entire story lost its original focus point.

3.       I don’t have time

Projects take time to complete, which is why they’re called projects. This one is more of an excuse than anything, but it does hinder me from starting things. I had plans to make a quote poster to hang above my bed here at school. I bought the materials last month, and I’m only working on it now. This project encompasses all of my fears that I’ve listed here, only this one I will see all the way through despite these fears (I’m hoping).